Gabtraf

As many noticed I haven't really posted here, or many other places often. Well I've been busy with university and work, so I haven't had time to do much. Although I do have a large amount of free time after classes, which my mind tends to wonder and occupy the time. There are times where I want to draw but I lose motivation to do so. Honestly, when I try to draw something I always despise it because I know someone else can one-up me and laugh in my face. Especially when I see others improve and draw better works than myself, it demotivates me to continue. Sure, I shouldn't judge my work to others, and only compare my work to my work... but, it still burns into my mind, feeds my doubt, and makes me no longer continue something I use to enjoy.
-I still continue to draw, only more faintly because of my lack of noticeable improvement over the year. Though often thought about stopping to draw altogether numerous of times, I keep at it somewhat. Not sure what else to think about this, all I know that my mind is pressuring me to give up in general... but I'm not fond of losing to anyone/anything. [I HATE LOSING]

So obviously I don't update here, or rather use this site frequently. I dunno' maybe it lost it's appeal to me or something. Anyway, I still update things here just in a little way. If anyone wants to see what I've been up to, just message me or something.

So it's been a couple of months since I updated on this site. Mainly because there isn't much for me to do here besides remain invisible in plain sight. (is actually a reoccurring theme since I don't really get noticed other sites as well but I digress)  Got my grades for my classes and it's overall pretty good, B's and C's, don't really care for A's really.

-So it brings me into thinking on what should I do with my time off. I could play more games as I normally do, draw something and maybe color it, pester people to hang out, cryogenically freeze myself so I can skip this break so I can do something productive again, exercise (which doesn't sound like a bad idea), or travel somewhere. I'll keep it in mind for now, but I know I need to keep myself busy or I'll going to go insane. (mainly because I'm stuck at home 24/7 in breaks)

Last question before I stop typing this, should I post recent sketches here(and post them in my scraps) or just wait till I color something then post it here?

Also if anyone have any requests, I'll gladly draw them for I need to get myself drawing more often so I can practice and improve for I have no idea what to draw half of time.

I should most likely update more so people don't think I ran off and died somewhere. College has also been a bit more troublesome, but luckily I finished it and transferred to a tier 1 school so I'm somewhat moving up within the world. I've been actually been drawing on-and-off on paper, haven't really used my tablet in a while. Been too psyched into trying to improve too much that it extended my art block which wasn't a good thing, I learned now that I need to have fun with drawing or I'll eventually stop drawing all-together. (which obviously isn't a good thing) So I've been drawing a few things here and there. Nothing really major, so of course always be on the look out for pictures on scraps since I mainly post my drawings there.

Also added a temporary icon and profile picture, the icon was created by Koo. (Should look at this work, he's really good) and the profile picture is an old picture from Haiku. (I think it's a year old) I'll get myself making a new icon and profile soon.

Also I got the 3DS XL, those who has a 3DS should add me on there. Just send me a note or comment below if you want to add me or something.

3DS XL: 5112-4705-3491 "Traft"

College is truly getting the best of me this year. I've been more focused on that more than anything else so far. I have many sketches that I should have uploaded on my scraps but I've been somewhat too busy either working on research papers, studying for exams, and/or Skyrim. I also haven't been touching my tablet either, which is pretty sad since I used it  a lot last year to get use to it, but I am trying to improve on my anatomy and eventually work on backgrounds, cars, robots, and other sort of creations. Though, I have my doubts (a lot of them in a matter of fact), I am still persistent. (which is somewhat a redeeming quality to my cynical mind)  

In short: I am alive but barely even updating now.

Also found an interesting war that only lasted thirty-six minutes (I'm not kidding), it's called the Anglo-Zanzibar war.
Read up on it when given the chance: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anglo-Za…